Waking to a dream realized

I recall a phrase my husband uses to describe me. After 25 years of marriage I know the phrase well. He often tells me I am truly special. He says things come to you that the ordinary person has not experienced. You strike gold a lot, he tells me. I understand what he means when he says it. I don't think he is belittling any of the intense effort that goes into my work, he is sharing a feeling he believes. He is sharing what he has personally witnessed. I have found favor.

Thing is I don't think I am any different than the average person. In fact, I know I am not. I don't believe any more fairy dust has been sprinkled in my direction than any other. But there is one difference I am willing to own. That difference is this....I never say never. These words simply don't exist in my vocabulary. I detest the word NEVER.

So since I was a pup, I have gone about my life climbing against the grain of life. Thing is when you are willing to do this, you sign up for getting your feelings hurt. There are too many days to count that you come out on the bottom, upside down in the pursuit of victory.

But if you keep your nose glued to the bullseye. If you maintain your eyes on the prize. If you swallow whole the pain of disappointment and then pull your chair back up to the table, you will feast. The universe will find you and it will reach out to you, pull you in. And you will feel what only those that have lost handedly feel. You will feel a sense of accomplishment. You will taste what it feels like to come out ahead. You will rejoice and dance and jump and cry out. But this feeling only comes to those who have spent time on the extreme other end of the spectrum, losing. That failure prepares you for that moment. And when it comes to you, it is stronger than the strongest boom in the loudest cannon.

It comes as if delivered by God himself. You will hear it because He has prepared you to hear it. It sounds like, IN YOU I AM WELL PLEASED. And then you know in an instant you did not get there of your own choosing.