Let go of those excuses you harbor for safety sakes. If there is something you want to do, then do it. If there is something you do not want to do, then by all means just don't do it. Put aside what you think you are missing out on by trying to be someone you are not. Put that time into becoming your vision of what you want, what you dictate. You know yourself better than anyone. So the next time someone dares to tell you about you, shut them down in their verbal tracks. You will be glad you did.
STOP wasting time on yesterday. Stop being dead weight for someone else's amusement. Get moving ahead even if that means leaving behind what it is you know you should have been rid of long ago. STOP being that punching bag so that someone else can feel better than you. STOP now while you still can. Don't allow anyone to compare you to anyone else. Take in your magnificence. STOP waiting for them to validate you. Screw them.
Stop all that because it hurts. It hurts you. STOP HURTING YOU.