My husband Bob and my best friend Kimberly would be with me before surgery. Everything went so smoothly when I arrived at Dekalb Medical hospital. I felt a great sense of calm all around me. I kept being asked by the staff, do you know why you are here? It felt silly but I kept answering the same way, "Yes, I am here to have a radical hysterectomy." It never felt quite right as the words rolled out. My life was on hold. My heart was fixed on Jesus.
The final agreement Bob and I reached with Dr. Spann the surgeon was if there is any cancer remove all reproductive organs in the abdomen. If there is a damaged but non-cancerous left ovary take it but leave my right ovary. In all cases, we asked Dr. Spann to use his best judgment. My husband, best friend Kimberly and I prayed together with Dr. Spann and then he went off to perform another surgery just before mine.
Fremont, a handsome looking gentlemen with a distinct African accent put me to sleep. I remember him saying, I will be with you. I will not leave you. Just as I was about to go to sleep Dr. Pope dressed in her green surgical garb and mask (the doctor who first identified my possible ovarian cancer) leaned over me with her pearl blue eyes in the operating room and said, "Mrs. White I wanted to come in and say hello. I want you to know I am here to support you. I wish you the very best outcome today." My eyes swelled with tears as I fell into sleep.
It had been a long few weeks. I was so tired. I was turning my life over to God's unchanging hands. Now more than ever, His will be done. I felt no fear. I felt his spirit all around me. I belonged in my master's plan. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
I awoke three hours later and met Daisy. Three times I recall asking her how many ovaries do I have? And three times I recall in my post op drowsy state her saying, I did not have any ovaries remaining. I did not have any reaction to hearing this. I drifted back to sleep with complete peace.
When I awoke again I was on the cancer floor of the hospital where I would remain until being released to return home. Here I met Lisa and Rosemarie. Their care was exemplary. Lisa had a hysterectomy herself. She helped me understand the importance of getting moving as soon as possible. My first walk would be with her and my IV at 5:30 AM before her shift ended. Rosemarie from Jamaica kept me comfortable and full of hot tea upon my every request, day or night.
Bob called to say he was on his way back after returning home to care for our dog Mozart. I raised my voice at him and said, "You said you would not lie to me!" Puzzled, he asked what I meant? He reminded me that this was the first time we were speaking after surgery. He asked me had I spoken to anyone yet? I said they took my ovaries.
He calmly replied, "No La Detra they did not. You do not have cancer and your ovaries are completely healthy. You have both ovaries remaining. We have the best news we could have ever hoped for." I yelled out to Rosemarie, "I do not have cancer!" She looked astonished as did Lisa. Rosemarie spoke aloud, "I told you there was something different and special about her Lisa!" We praised almighty God. Yes we did! Then I got a sizeable dose of morphine to curb my increasing pain...more sleep.
Dr. Spann, my surgeon came in a short time later and confirmed it all. I had an abdomen full of variously sized benign fibroid tumors which had plagued me since my twenties, but I did not have a mass/cyst on my left ovary. Whatever Dr. Pope had seen before was not there. During surgery only benign fibroids were found. And God put Dr. Pope in the operating room to be her own witness.
My ovaries Dr. Spann described as GROSSLY NORMAL OVARIES. Both completely healthy and quite beautiful. He told me when Dr. Pope saw inside me, she insisted that Dr. Spann look again. She kept repeating over and over, "Look again Dr. Spann, I know what I saw before. I know what I saw." Dr. Spann responded, "Dr. Pope we are all looking."
And I proclaimed, I KNOW WHAT MY GOD JUST DID!
This is my testimony. And to God be the glory. Amen.
My hope is to expose you to the possibilities of faith and believing.