It starts with it's okay

I never got around to becoming the lawyer I swore I would be from the time I could talk, argue, shout or throw tantrums. I never made it to the edge of nowhere and shouted my name only to hear it echo off everywhere for only my listening ear to hear. I never thanked my first boyfriend Lee, five years old at the time for helping me take off those sticky over-boots stuck to my sneakers beneath. I never had the white picket fence with the 2.5 children, baked bread from scratch or became Miss America, though I came close.

I never fixed all those problems I color coded with different highlighters, red meaning "DO NOW" down to yellow meaning track but don't sweat it today. I never gave enough just because it was asked of me, thinking instead, hey, I do my share.

I never lost those winter pounds during spring and summer. Never once was the first one asked to dance at any prom, any homecoming dance or any anything. I never a lot.

But as I come into myself I have come to realize the best thing ever. I have become okay with never. I have given in to it's okay. I have yielded mostly because it's okay feels good on me. And never can go somewhere in search of everywhere. But as for me, I am okay being me. And where I am headed, never ever had a chance of stopping me anyway.

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