I am not that popular, never have been. This is something I have had to get used to, adjust to in other words. I have never in my memory been invited to anything, well not really. If I receive an invitation, I am not expected to over stay my welcome. Breeze in, breeze out unnoticed. What a way to exist.
Not once have I ever heard the words "thank you." Mostly I feel I have been taken for granted. No one to my knowledge has really tried to get to know me, the really interesting parts of me. Sometimes others get really close to exploring what talents I bring but then it really never goes anywhere. It is though everyone tip toes around me careful not to stir up my attention.
Once I overheard someone say I bring great energy into spaces. I looked around see if it was truly me they were talking about. Me bringing good energy? I don't hear that enough. I wish I did. I thought it was brave of anyone to compliment me in this way. "I bring good energy", I kept repeating to myself over and over again. For a few moments that felt good inside.
More often I am cursed. Sometimes silently, sometimes angrily and out loud. I cannot believe I was created to be treated with such disdain. Once someone said I was welcome to hang around as long as I remained calm and did not create an unsettling atmosphere. Like I am invisible. I was most offended. Who wouldn't be? I can only be me.
I guess I understand a little why most others don't like me. I can be a bit disruptive sure. Like the time I knocked over a picnic table full of well-prepared food, not on purpose of course. And then there was the time I tumbled the three feet high dominos display at the annual Beehive Festival. That did not go over well. Again, not totally my fault, I was behaving naturally, acting naturally.
I just want people to know me. Try to get to know my better side. Ask me questions about me. Care enough about me to give me the benefit of the doubt. Doesn't everyone want that, deserve at least that?
It is so hard being THE WIND.
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