Had I been there with my posse

Everybody loves to see a good fight. You will hear people say, "break it up, break it up." But almost never are they the ones actually breaking it up. No deep inside we are a creation of bystanders. Always sitting in the backdrop waiting for someone else to show up and do our dirty work. Today is Easter, and I just wonder what I would have done had I been at the crucifixion.

I think what I did, how I acted would have depended on how I felt in the moment. I mean how was the environment? What direct access did I have to the situation at hand? Did I even know this person so accused? Was it any of my business? If I did not want to be involved, the first thing I would have done is to look for a way out mentally. Give myself permission to disassociate. What's in this for me? No skin off my back right?

My likely way out of this picture would have been, if He made it all the way to the cross he must have done something mighty deserving to be hanging up there. What is happening to him must be just. I mean why else would anyone go through all the trouble to assemble so many people if there weren't something justified going on? It doesn't seem He was singled out, look there are three of them hanging up there.

If I wanted to get more involved I would have gone to my posse, asked what they knew about the situation. And depending on their response one of two things might have occurred. If their hair raised a bit, I would ask them, what would they do? What should we do? But if on the on chance they felt like I did, I would let it ride and go back to my business, minding my own business. Just another day and by the way, I did not know him personally anyway or his people.

Sad but true. I wish I had a better answer for all this. But I wasn't there, so does it really matter?

Now that I know more, I do wonder if He has been watching me to see what I have done since knowing. Since finding out what it was really all about. That His being there was all about me. That He was fighting my battle and with much skin off His back.