She sobbed until the tears wanted to fall but there were none to command. She felt a halo of lightness all around. She at first was afraid to notice. She did not want to scare the new moment away. So for very long passable moments she sat very still. And then without a clear sense of purpose she extended her hands into the air, upward to where she expected God to be and in a low yet distinguishable tone she spoke aloud,
"Lord leave me unashamed, unrestrained and set free. Allow me to live with a knowing purpose. Give me light where now I find only darkness. Allow me to see me as you see me. Create in me a new beginning with tomorrows filled with anticipation. Do not allow me to continue to live on my belly looking down, feeling down, behaving unworthy and down trodden. Allow me to live knowing, believing, and expecting victory where now there is only a weightiness of defeat."
"I am believing you at your word. Now I command you as my Lord and my shepherd to take back what the devil has stolen. Step out in front of my enemies and lead me onward toward the promised land. You said seek and I will find. I am a willing vessel. Fix me so I might serve you with a fullness of heart. Allow my eyes to see a better way that only you could have prepared. Allow my works to be fixed on creating a new path leading to righteous outcomes where you get all the glory. I rejoice in knowing you have never left me. You are with me always. I will never be alone. And as a chosen child of your creation I WILL NOT live my life lost at this intersection of Lonely and Alone. You created me for greatness!"