Nowadays I walk both because I enjoy it and because I am constantly in a state of remaining well. I know what it feels like to be unwell. At first I thought it was just jet lag.
In April of 2015 I became unusually lethargic. I slept a lot and it seemed I could never get enough energy to do the things I needed to do. I spent a lot of time in bed. Weeks into not getting any better I relented and went to see a doctor, which turned into three doctors. One of these doctors was a cancer doctor. Yes. I was 51 years old and about to have surgery to see if I had "the really bad cancer." The silent killer, ovarian cancer. It was the most scary, stressful, painful time of my entire life. My oldest brother died of cancer. It had taken his life at age 45 in less than one year after diagnosis. I was used to bad hearts in my family. My mother passed of a bad heart that simply gave out at age 55. Her mother too, habitual heart problems.
I wrote private letters to my children and my husband of 24 years and laid my fate at the alter of Jesus. After an invasive, exploratory surgery less than three weeks after first visiting doctors, I learned my problem was not cancer at all. I have "beautiful ovaries."
I spent the next few months becoming well from problems more related to severe anemia. Once I fully recovered, I vowed I would spend the rest of my life becoming well and remaining well. And mostly I have. What I have learned is becoming well is not an impossibility. It is a mind-set. An exercise of commitment and forgiveness. I say forgiveness because I have bad days. I eat all wrong, drink all wrong and do all wrong. But the beauty of becoming well is your promise is to self. You don't owe anyone else an explanation. It is your body, your life, your decision to become well and remain well.
I am so glad I have made the important choice to take better care of myself. When I am healthy I am able to do more, becoming more of my creative self. I am able to take time out for family and do all those things I enjoy doing. With good health, I can be present. I can be there for those who are becoming healthy too.
Our body is our temple and we are expected to do our best to take care of MIND, BODY and SPIRIT.
I pray others will join me on this "becoming well" journey.