I remember growing up and as far back as I can remember I was called "hard headed." I used to answer to it more than my given name it seemed. I had my own thoughts about things and often I learned things the hard way. Hard headed fit me. Sometimes it worked out in my favor. Like when I am told I am incapable of doing something. I was told once by a boss in my twenties that I was highly unlikely to get into Harvard Business School after I applied. I did. He didn't . In many respects, my hard head for the good outweighed the bad, but not always.
I came to know Christ at a very early age. it would be a long time though before I sought a relationship. For years our relationship was one sided. I checked in when I needed something. Even though I tithed, attended church, taught Sunday School, sang in the choir, and went to Wednesday bible lessons, I did not really have a daily intimate relationship with the Lord. I did not even know how to pray until I entered my forties. What I mean by pray is pray with a heart of "your will be done Lord." I did not surrender all of myself, I clung to man many times and hoped God would intercede versus expecting that he would based on his word. Truth is I really never knew his word. Never got to know scripture. I used the bible as the thing we kept around. The object every God fearing Christian should have at least one of in the drawer or on display on the coffee table. The bible was an object not an instrument.
Things began to change for me not because something big happened or did not happen in my life. I can't say some big life milestone occurred tragic or otherwise than recentered me. Mine is not that type of testimony. For me it was much more subtle. My transformation can best be described as a simple act of obedience. A heart decision point.
There is scripture, loosely translated in the bible that says, "It is better to not know and not do than to know and not do." I interpret this to mean, once you know what God expects of you he holds you accountable. Obedience is the cornerstone of this expectancy. My heart was pierced by this passage 2Peter 2:21. And once my eyes were opened I could not shut them. I could not erase the impact on my heart. And from then on when God said move, I moved. My life has never been the same or better.
What followed was all the ways God was waiting to move in my life based on my simple obedience. Though I moved in baby steps, he moved in Herculean jumps.
I came to know Christ at a very early age. it would be a long time though before I sought a relationship. For years our relationship was one sided. I checked in when I needed something. Even though I tithed, attended church, taught Sunday School, sang in the choir, and went to Wednesday bible lessons, I did not really have a daily intimate relationship with the Lord. I did not even know how to pray until I entered my forties. What I mean by pray is pray with a heart of "your will be done Lord." I did not surrender all of myself, I clung to man many times and hoped God would intercede versus expecting that he would based on his word. Truth is I really never knew his word. Never got to know scripture. I used the bible as the thing we kept around. The object every God fearing Christian should have at least one of in the drawer or on display on the coffee table. The bible was an object not an instrument.
Things began to change for me not because something big happened or did not happen in my life. I can't say some big life milestone occurred tragic or otherwise than recentered me. Mine is not that type of testimony. For me it was much more subtle. My transformation can best be described as a simple act of obedience. A heart decision point.
There is scripture, loosely translated in the bible that says, "It is better to not know and not do than to know and not do." I interpret this to mean, once you know what God expects of you he holds you accountable. Obedience is the cornerstone of this expectancy. My heart was pierced by this passage 2Peter 2:21. And once my eyes were opened I could not shut them. I could not erase the impact on my heart. And from then on when God said move, I moved. My life has never been the same or better.
What followed was all the ways God was waiting to move in my life based on my simple obedience. Though I moved in baby steps, he moved in Herculean jumps.
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